FYI

Guys - men - this is pretty girly stuff, but you can read if you like.

Ok, I think that this will be short and to the point. I wanted to give you all a pregnancy update. I have been spotting off and on throughout my pregancy - which can be normal. I had an ultrasound April 24th that showed a baby heartbeat and that everything looked fine. The baby measured 6 wks - we thought I was 8 weeks. I also had bloodwork done to check my pregnancy hormone levels. They were ok. So I continued to spot off and on. Wednesday May 16th I was actually bleeding - I was told to lay down the rest of the day. I stopped bleeding and just had some slight spotting Thursday and Friday. Saturday evening I began to actually bleed again. I bled Sunday and Monday. Monday night they had me go into the emergency room for a pelvic exam. The pelvic exam showed my cervix was closed - I had not had a miscarriage. They did blood work to check my pregnancy hormone levels - they should double every two days. They did not get the results right away. I was sent home and asked to go back Tuesday afternoon for an ultrasound. Tuesday the ultrasound was awkward. The tech was very quiet and not wanting to give much information. She couldn't see very well abdominally so she did a vaginal ultrasound. We saw the baby, but that is all she would say other than asking a bunch of times when I was going to see my doctor again. I had them fax the results to my midwife and also to my regular doctor. My midwife called my Tuesday evening with the results. The baby had no heartbeat. The baby measured 7 wks when I should have been more like 11 wks. They concluded that the baby's heart had stopped beating a few wks ago and stopped growing. I have not miscarried. I was told I could wait a week to see if it happens on its own. By blood test showed the pregnancy hormone was decreaseing instead of increasing. On Tuesday if nothing has happened then I need to call my doctor and he'll set me up with an OB doctor to talk about the D&C procedure. I am really having issues with the idea of having a doctor remove my baby. I know that God is powerful and I know that God's will is always best for me. I pray that his will be evident. If God chooses not to revive the life within me that he would remove it naturally. I know there are risks to not having the baby removed - if it is dead then it can be toxic to my body. I want to wait as long as I can for God to complete the work. Either way that God would complete it. Please keep me in prayer.